Welcome!
Have you decided on your order?
2 iced coffees.
Ok, understood.
I'll take your menus.
Welcome
Hmmm, Ueki Keita...
Haruhino High School...
Where was Haruhino High School again, by the station?
Have you already slit your wrists?
Ah, no. I, it seemed like it would hurt ...so
Really?
It's ok, you don't have to hide it.
N, no, it's true.
See?
Thanks for waiting, here are your iced coffees.
Ah
Please let me know if you want to order anything else.
Ok
Please take your time.
Ah
Ummm
I...
So
Are you really serious about this?
...Yes. Everyone already...
Hates me... So...
I, if I could get some help...
And contact...
Hmm? You want to commit suicide right?
That's why you texted me, right?
Ah... yes. But, um, well
Huh? There's something strange about your story.
Hmmm?
....Matsushita-san, you're helping... me, right?
<big>Wh</big>
<big>at?</big>
<big>To All Hopes, A Yell</big>
First Part
5 Days ago
5 days ago
Eh, well, a person that's helping someone who's thinking of committing suicide is...
It happened to Ueki again.
What happened to the inside of his desk?
Well, there was a plastic bottle.
He's worried that his textbooks are covered in juice.
They're soaked.
Ah
Whoa
Whoa
Hmph
Whoa whoa
He got dirty.
You have to check your seat
Ueki-
This sort of thing was a common occurrence.
Keita, when your older sister was your age,
I think she did much better than you.
Keita, are you studying?
Mathematics
She never got scores this low.
Anyway, it was tough.
Ah
I should die.
Specifically, I wanted to escape.
But I didn't know a way to commit suicide.
Shaga~
Of course, there's the train.
Matsushita
To the person about to commit suicide, please wait. Please, send me a text!
(Anonymous)
What's with him?
"Matsushita"...?
Ah... He included an e-mail address.
A text...
To Matsushita-san
I wanted someone to help me.
Like I was relying on him, yesterday I sent a text. And now...
So that's why you want to commit suicide?
Why would I stop that?
Did I write that you shouldn't commit suicide?
Wait
What do you...
I said if you're going to commit suicide, don't do it without thinking.
Before that, please send me a message.
I said, if you're going to commit suicide, don't do it without thinking.
Before that, please send me a message.
Get it?
C, c, could it be you want to watch me commit suicide, so... you called... me?
What!?
The one who called was you? Well... anyway,
Good luck
On committing suicide!
He's crazy.
This guy is definitely crazy!
On committing suicide!
I, is he supporting someone's suicide? Normally... No, he's not normal. He's crazy!
U, umm, like I thought, I...
Ah?
Are you going to stop?
Second year male student at Haruhino High School
Ueki Keita
I see. So you like online dating, huh~
I wonder if I should post your phone number around school.
T, t, that's terrible...
It's fine, right? Because you'll be committing suicide.
So if this comes out...
He's serious.
This guy's serious about leading me on the path to committing suicide.
A, anyway, please wait.
There's lots... I have to prepare...
Ah, that's true. How will you be dying?
How will...?
Hanging? Jumping off a building? Or maybe cutting an important artery?
N...
U, umm, I don't want it... to hurt...
It can't. It really can't.
I can't stand it. I really can't.
I can't even stand when I get a paper cut on my finger...
Tch
Do you really have a will to die?
Don't take suicide lightly!
I, I'm... sor...
Well, there's a medicine that will give you a peaceful death.
Eh
T, there... is...?
Thank you very much
I bought this.
Online.
When I found someone who's about to commit suicide, I'd let them use this.
Especially a human like you who doesn't have the courage to die.
With... with this, I really... will be a peace?
Ah, that's correct. There won't be any pain or suffering.
Only death.
If you want it, I'll sell it to you. So, what will you do? Do you need it?
If you don't need it, then someone else...
I... I'll buy it...! Please sell it to me.
Ah, really?
That'll be 400,000 yen.
Four...
Hhhold on, I don't have that kind of money...!
Hhhold on, I don't have that kind of money...!
Ah?
Then you can't buy it.
T, that's... I'm a student so I can't borrow money.
If you're a student, then you should get a part time job. Think about that and die!
I, I'm sor... Die!?
You rely on people for absolutely everything! You naive fool!
T, that's impossible. I've been told by my parents to study...
Which is more important, suicide or studying?
Suicide, right!?
Y, yes....
U, umm, so please give me back my student ID card...
Ah, I'll give it back when you die.
That's...
This is important, so answer your phone whenever I call.
I'm the only one giving out personal information...
Ah?
No, it's nothing...
Anyway, is "Matsushita" a psuedonym?
Anyway, is "Matsushita" a pseudonym?
Ehh
So it is... It was like a real name so I believed it...
...Um, is my student ID... really... that interesting?
Not really.
Haruhino High School is a school for smart people, right? Even though you're bad at studying, you got in?
Eh... Ah, my parents... told me it's the same high school that my older sister attended...
Hmph, your older sister...
Getting in like that's fine, but since your grades were bad, your parents got mad at you.
Yes...
All my tests were compared to my older sister's...
Each of my tests were compared to my older sister's...
Heh~ As an example, what place were you from the bottom?
From the bottom... I don't know.
Then, what was your rank out of how many people?
Umm... Out of 300 people... I was 4th... On the last test...
Ah! But that was because I tried really hard... Normally, I'm 6th.
4th is bad?
It is. The lowest I can be is 2nd...
My older sister was always 1st or 2nd...
Hmph... That's...
Hmph... That...
Made you want to die.
Yes. My studying is like this...
I don't have any friends...
Both at home and at school, I don't fit in...
Did you think that when I heard that, I would tell you not to commmit suicide?
Did you think that when I heard that, I would stop you from committing suicide?
Did you think I would say 'Don't do it, you should try and live'?
Right now, I can't think of you as anything but a gloomy person, just as you appear.
Well, at least good luck on earning money so you can die.
That's right. I decided on one thing. To die.
Just like an insult.
When I earn the money, please give me the drug that will let me die.
When I earn the money, I will collect the medicine that will let me die.
Ahh
So hanging is too much for a coward.
On the internet, the "Grim Reaper" known as Matsushita
Found a part time job for me where they were short handed.
W
Welcome...
Yeah that's good. Your voice is louder than it was at the start.
You don't have to be so nervous.
TH, That idiot
I, Is he stupid?
I said I was bad with people and gloomy.
Yes...
O, of all things, customer service...
Umm~ Excuse m~e
Y, yes?
Are you already out of the limited time promotion~?
Ummm, limited time promotion...
This~ The strawberry flavored one.
Ah, please... wait a momen...
Do you have it~? Or don't you~?
No! I can't get nervous.
I'll go ask right now... So please wait a...
It's fine if you don't have it~ Hurry up~!
Geez, just say that you don't
Ah, Ueki-kun, can you please help out with the register?
Ah, yes...
1 item at 105 yen.
1 item at 298 yen.
She's fast.
Ah, hey, wait.
Don't put the juice on top of the magazine.
Ah
I, I'm sorry.
Thank you very much.
I I I'm sorry, I just spaced out...
This is a job where you're standing for long periods of time.
It happens, it's ok.
Uh... ok.
This is bad... I'm in over my head...
I want to hurry up and die...
Like I thought, no matter where I am
I'm nothing but a bother...
Ueki-kun, come over here.
Even though I was given a referral.
I was finally given this referral
Y...
Yes!
It felt like... I wasn't suited for it.
But it felt like... I wasn't suited for it.
Ueki-kun, sorry, look after the register.
Thanks for waiti...
Nikuman.
Geh
Huh? The workers here have no manners. What a bad feeling.
Please wait a bit...
So? Are you making any progress?
How does the price of suicide feel?
...I'm slow
Even though everyone's nice to me...
Ever since yesterday, I, I've only been a bother to them...
I wondered if I could keep going... That's how I feel...
Huh!? How naive are you? You already want to quit? It's only been 2 days since you started working here, go die!
Wai
You're too loud...
And please don't tell me to die...
A person like you, no matter where he goes, in the end, just does this. An idiot who escapes right away.
If you don't want to go to an interview with someone you don't know, then go hang yourself right here, you idiot!
He's a demon. A grim reaper.
Or rather, hurry up and do it.
He called me an idiot twice...
He said it so cleverly that I just wanted to get the money quickly. And I didn't think that my life was just garbage.
Well, I am a garbage-like human...
In order to die, I worked with all my strength.
In order to die, I am now living.
In order to die, I am working with all my strength.
In order to die, I'm sweating.
Good luck
on committing suicide.
A goal.
For the first time, my life had a goal.
To be continued