Ueki-kun, even though you have school
The fact that you come here
Is really helpful.
I, I'm... helpful?
Just the fact that a guy is here is reassuring.
Really...
If a robber came, I probably won't be of any use...
Ahaha, if that happens
Your own life should take precedence.
Life... huh
1 month has passed since I began working at this part time job in order to end my own life.
I had become able to carry 3 pieces of cardboard at once.
This is alcohol
I stopped stammering when asked about the goods on display.
Since I thought being scolded by my parents would be a pain, I studied during my breaks.
My grades didn't go up or down.
I'm busy...
It was the first time I felt "busy".
I had thought that being busy was only for adults.
Ueki-kun, everyone's going to dinner.
Ueki-kun, let's go
Everyone's going to eat dinner.
Eh, really... Ah...
Can you go?
I
I forgot something at school...
Ok, then let's go next time.
O, ok, I'm sorry...!
Why did I forget my phone now of all times...!
<big>To All Hopes, A Yell</big>
Last Part
I'm in luck, the gate's open.
Isn't that Ueki.
What are you doing?
Eh...
You seem nervous.
Even though nothing's happened
Even though nothing's happened.
Hey, you got an insect on you.
Wah
That was easy.
Ueki, the insect's gone.
...I want to die.
I got scared, and I couldn't defy them. I'm pathetic.
400,000...
Just like it was a spell
Every day, I repeated those words.
YOUU
Uwaaaa
Gaaaaaah Gaaaaaah
I told you to answer when I called.
That's right.
The first time we met in the cafe, I was told that when I get an incoming call, I better answer it.
I told you that you better answer when I called.
Just because I didn't answer the phone he headbutted me just because I didn't answer the phone he headbutted me just because I didn't answer the phone he headbutted me...
Eh... So... W... What did you...
Nothing really.
EH
I didn't even realize there was an incoming call.
Being so violent in front of my part time job...
He's scary. If I don't hurry up and get the money...
1 item at 198 yen.
The total comes to 572 yen.
Stare
What?
I haven't made a mistake yet.
You've gotten fast at the register.
Y, yes...
Ummm, seventy.... two yen exactly.
Don't put the juice on top of the magazine.
Ah!
Th
Thank you very
much.
When it got warmer, the stored started a campaign.
The school had just changed uniforms, and the tests before summer vacation were drawing close.
Hot
It's hot again today. Are you doing ok?
A, y, yes.
You're relatively cool... for it being so hot.
Yeah
But at night, the temperature drops, doesn't it.
I'm talking about
being worried about clothes.
Katou-san's stylish.
I'm pretty sure she said she had a boyfriend.
Well, it's not like she looks at me like that.
Ueki-kun.
In any case, I think we'll be parting, eventually.
Yes?
Is Matsushita-kun doing well?
That guy never comes in when I'm at the register.
M, Matsushita...
Like always, he only buys a cup of coffee and leaves right away.
Ah, yes... He seems... the same as always...
Huh? But I'm certain it was a fake name...
I still don't get that guy...
Ah
More importantly, I have a bunch of holidays starting today, so I always have to come in.
What should I do? I have until Wednesday to do the assignment...
Even if I don't do it on Saturday, I have a day off from my part time job on Monday...
Ah, but
Tuesday afternoon is self-study.
Ah, yeah, I'll do that.
So, on Thursday
Speaking of which
I was called on Friday by Matsushita...
I was summoned on Friday by Matsushita...
I wonder if he'll take me to okonomiyaki again.
That hateful guy's weapon is to make me eat it all. And how many people's worth... And it ends with me feeling terrible.
Actually, every time, he's treated me, but it's somehow scary. It's like he's saying for me to return the favor later.
Huh
Just like in the break room... I unconsciously cleaned it...
Huh? What's with him?
He picked up on it?
Uekii
You seem pretty confident today.
N
No, t, th, that's...
Ah, really? You seemed that way!
Are you listening to what people are you saying!? Turn towards them when you answer!?
Die!
Someone like you should die!
Compared to this, Matsushita-san is 100x scarier.
Telling me to hurry up and die, making fun of me because I worry about what others think.
Staring at me when I'm slow at the register.
Using violence, calling me at weird times and getting mad at me when I don't answer...
Staring at me when I'm slow at the register,
Telling me to hurry up and die, making fun of me because I worry about what others think,
You're riding high just because your rank went up on the last test, huh?
Right?
Weak...
Sh
Shut up
You idiot.
OW
Ueki-kun, what happened?
Your nose! It's bleeding!
Ah, I'm fine. Completely fine.
I ran into it! I was spacing out... And ran into a telephone pole!
Sorry, can I just wait a bit until the bleeding stops?
You should go home.
No, but it's already stopping.
Sorry
Take a break.
You can't work.
Hah
Haaa
I got beat up until my nose bled...
And... By the end of the month... I'll have saved 400,000.
Half a year had passed since I sent Matsushita-san that first text.
Welcome!
2 iced coffees.
...Please return my student ID.
And
The medicine...
Do you really need it?
If you really need it
I'll give it to you.
Thanks for waiting, here are your iced coffees.
What will you do? Do you want to take it right now? Or maybe you'll prepare a will and do it in your own room
I, I don't need it...
Like I thought... I don't need... the medicine.
Like I thought... I don't need... the drug.
Like I thought... I don't need... the medicine.
I'm sorry.
I thought a lot about it, but I...
Well, you've already killed yourself.
Eh, no, I'm alive...
No, you died. You killed yourself.
I'm alive, I'm alive. I feel fine...
Then what happened to the you of half a year ago?
Everyone already hates me...
I want to die.
I want to commit suicide.
Please help me. I want to die with the medicine.
I don't want any pain.
You killed him, right?
Then what happened to the you from half a year ago?
...Before, I was beat up in my classroom by the guys in my class.
My nose bled, and it really hurt.
But afterwards, I went to the shop like normal, and like always, worked the register.
And then, still like that, I grabbed a bunch of big garbage bags at the same time.
Even though I hadn't even thrown away any garbage bags at my own house.
I'll return this.
Ueki Keita
When I look at it now, it seems like a depressing student ID...
I too
When I didn't answer the phone, she got mad at me.
She said I thought you might have gone and died on my own.
Huh...?
My student ID was taken and I was told to work and get 800,000...
But 800,000 is, well...
Maybe I lost interest mid-way through. Since I was like that, next time, I would only do half that amount.
Wh, what are you talking about?
I'm the same as you.
Well, I didn't wear short sleeves.
M, Matsushita-san, you were helped by someone too?
Just like I was helped by you... Online...!
HUH!?
I didn't help you at all?
Don't get caught up in the moment, die!
I, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. And don't please don't tell me to die...
Well the only ones who call me Matsushita are you and that person.
What about your part time job today?
Ah, it's starting now!
I mean, here. The money. W, what should I do...
Ah? i don't need it. It's your's so you should keep it.
Eh, b, but the medicine... I promised to buy it... Even though you prepared such an expensive thing for me.
You want to buy some ordinary headache medicine for 400,000?
Headache medicine!?
Matsushita-san
Shall I combine the bill for both of you?
Ueki! Treat me.
Eh
Ah
Y, yes.
You said before that I helped you.
But I could have taken your money and run.
Out of 10,000 yen.
I specifically referred you to a part time job you would hate.
So actually, I tricked you. I didn't help you.
...But you didn't take my money.
Also, when I didn't answer the phone, you were really concerned about me, weren't you? Though it really hurt.
Huh? That was just me blowing off steam?
That's fine.
Thank you for helping me kill myself.
Your change is 9040 yen.
At school and at home, when you feel tired, do your best.
But not to the death. Not that far.
And 4th place is amazing.
...Ok.
Eh, Matsushita-kun said that?
But it's a story from several years ago.
Yes, umm... He said he was helped by you.
No, I didn't help him.
Since you look like you're going to die even now
If you work and save money, I'll give you some medicine. That's all I said.
Here. This was taken with everyone.
Ah, Katou-san, you had long hair.
Matsushita-kun is there, right? Don't tell him I showed you this.
Eh, Matsushita-san is here?
He should be at the end.
I think... He was probably the same age as you back then.
Ah
There he is. And he's make a peace sign. That guy...
Ah...
This
Long sleeves
Did you slit your wrists?
You don't have to hide it.
You don't have to hide it.
Katou-san, were you also
Katou-san, were you
Also helped by someone?
Like how I was helped by Matsushita-san...
I failed to die.
I was too heavy. Maybe that was why.
I was too heavy. I couldn't go on.
I was too heavy. It was useless.
The rope
No matter how many times I tried, it broke and I couldn't hang myself.
If so, then what if I lost weight? So I went online and got advice.
I desperately lost weight, got a part time job and exercised...
And then, the clothes that I could only look at before, I was able to wear. I was happy.
Katou-san, that's
Not failing to die, is it?
Something more like... Fate or hope...
Something like that...
Ah, the time!
It's time for me to get to the register.
Ah, so it is. A shift change.
Hope
How embarrassing.
What was I saying.
As I'm here working the register
Are there people thinking that they want to die?
Ah, it's almost summer break.
One item at 90 yen.
2 items at 315 yen.
Starting tomorrow, we have swimming in PE.
Busy
Ah, I don't need a spoon.
Excuse me.
On Saturday, I'll be summoned by Matsushita.
On Saturday, I'll be summoned by Matsushita-san.
My parents are under the impression that I made a friend. Is he a friend...?
A lot of the things I do are a bother.
From tomorrow onward, there are lots of things which I have to do.
From tomorrow onward, there will be lots of things which I have to do.
Thank you very much.
To All Hopes, A Yell
The End
It makes me happy if you enjoyed To All Hopes, A Yell.
I myself drew this, but when you have a nosebleed, don't tilt your head up. Doing so will only make it not flow out.
Nosebleeds are bad...
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